I am, honestly, still struggling with God's purpose in all of this. I don't understand and sometimes the pain is practically unbearable.
I have found some refuge in the following verse:
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made unto God
and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Thank you all for your prayers.